Atashi no Tame Ni
Warm. You feel so warm in my arms, in spite of what others think of you. 'Hen' and 'Majou' and 'Akuma' are whispered back and forth when they think you and I arenft listening.
But I listen. I hear. Theyfre the same ones that call me 'Yankee' and say that Ifm really a man. Donft listen to them though; they donft know what theyfre talking about.
All that really matters is that I have you. Thatfs all I need. Well, you, and Tooru. But thatfs different. Shefs my friend; she saved me back then. But you... my beautiful lightning-flower.
Thatfs corny, isnft it? But thatfs how I feel. Just touching you sends tiny electrical jolts through my body, and not just because of your high electrical waves.
I love running my fingers through your hair, hearing you sigh at my touch... and when you part your petal lips under mine, I want to hold the moment forever. Even if I were never to see anyone ever again, I wouldnft mind. Just as long as I have you, Ifm okay.
I feel bad sometimes, having been the one to take our friendship beyond that. But I donft regret it; I love every private moment I have with you, and even those in public, where we can allow no one to know... I adore you anyway. Every time wefre at school and I canft touch you, canft hold you... it hurts me inside.
I donft understand it... this feeling of pure love that I have for you. Itfs like a freezing fire coursing through my veins, burning me up inside and freezing me at the same time. And I like it. Itfs a wonderful burning feeling that I canft control. I canft stop it; I donft want to.
Itfs so strange... Ifm not used to this. Ifve always been the strong one, the mean girl that was hated by everyone. Now... have I turned soft? Am I weak? Should I go back to being as I was?
Can I?
Do I want to?
Canft I just make everything else go away so that I can hold you? Your smile... I live for your smile because itfs never seen. Only for me... my flower only opens for me, only smiles for me.
Letfs stay together... itsumo.
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